Autobiography

Tagline: It’s really silly and something I don’t want to talk about.

I was bored at Drama Club today and decided to text a bunch of people. One guy noticed that I was going back and forth with my iPod and phone. I was literally bored and felt useless…. so I tried making a use to the Club by being the curtain puller – something that I’ve been doing for shows throughout this school year. But I guess I got wrapped up in thinking about this KDrama called “You’re Beautiful” (recommended to people). Diane gave the reference about the pig nose… and honestly, I burst out laughing causing a “friend” to notice. I think he’s been observing me…. ’cause later while I was spacing about the KDrama (I’m indeed HOOKED – so it’s by far, my favourite), he texted me and asked me what I was thinking about.

Me: Oh…ATM? Something……..
Him: ATM something???
Me: At the moment… Yes…. Something. Haha. XD
Him: Such as…????
Me: Silly Thoughts.
Him: Like what? lol
Me: It’s really silly and something I don’t want to talk about.

So why these silly thoughts? Well, I was debating to myself about random guys (oh yes, including singers, but I observe) and categorizing them into three categories… Wanna guess? TaeKyung, ShinWoo, and (sorry it’s not Jeremy) others. Others… is those who I just really think are the douchebags of the Earth. And so I’m still doing it, but I’ve been giving them codenames that I only know. Here’s what I have so far:

TaeKyung
Pat-It
RED
Kyu
Ugly
George
Sun
Tablo

ShinWoo
S. Squared
AB
Teukie
Handsome
Dolphin
Yunho
Cooks
Jay
Avie
Eric

Others
PhiliKyu
JRN
Big Al
Vampire Sprinkles
Shrader
Grant

That’s what I have so far. And that’s what I was trying to do during Drama Club… I didn’t wanted to tell my “friend” about this, because yes, if someone actually saw me doing this IRL, they would think I’m silly and weird. I know you guys will laugh and think I’m delusional, but it’s okay – I really don’t like revealing 100% of me to anyone. I remember when someone on the “Others” list told me that I’m a very mysterious person and would like to get to know me more. Under “ShinWoo” is who I will confess feelings to, but under “TaeKyung” is who I will act comfortable and would do my Pig Nose at them if I was to talk to them. Truth be told, someone told me under “TaeKyung” that I looked like a Pig… and my mother calls me a rabbit. Heh, I laugh about this. There’s more about these guys, and they all have the same thing in common with the two guys I put and “Others”.

So where did I put this “friend” under? “ShinWoo”… If I told him this right now, he would probably feel down – I’m not that stupid. I may act dumb, but I do know when a guy has developed his feelings for me. I’m not oblivious like Mi Nyung. However, I will keep denying it sometimes, because I don’t want to feel hurt. I wasn’t kidding when I said I rejected many guys in the past. They all belong under “Others”… and probably “ShinWoo”…. but let’s just say, that most of them were under “Others”.

If I had to pick my favourites from each category (excluding celebrities), I would pick RED and Pat-It under “TaeKyung”, S. Squared and Jay under “ShinWoo”, and sadly… no one under “Others”… I posted some stories about RED. I’m pretty sure you guys can figure who this is out… He doesn’t read these blogs anymore. Hehe… but I did like RED the best…

I’m glad there’s a blog where I can just pour my feelings to. It’s because I know there are certain people who don’t read this and I can just vent it away. But sadly, I have to admit – I don’t also reveal 100% of myself to this blog. And it’s because there are people I know who are reading this so I take things out.

So I’ll just keep these silly thoughts in my head and smile to myself at random times. I really want to meet a “TaeKyung” and hopefully a “ShinWoo” in the future. It was fun, and my heart was in place. I miss it…